Cosi.

haha the first exam everyone's doing is english and that happens to be my worst subject. Like three essays in three hours, I CAN'T EVEN DO ONE PROPER ESSAY IN THREE HOURS. so it's like I'm screwed.

Each sentence just requires SO much thinking and thinking and thinking...and more thinking. it's ridiculous. It's not like you can write whatever because then you'd be rambling which would be "VERBAL DIARRHOEA" or "WORD VOMIT". HAHA.

anyway yeah you have to think about PROPERLY addressing the prompt, how to include the themes in your essay, show that you know the book with GREAT GREAT GREAT DEPTH and FINALLY do ALL THIS IN SOPHISTICATED AND FLUENT LANGUAGE. and also doing it within ONE HOUR

hahahaha I HAVE PROBLEMS WITH ALL OF THIS. sucks balls.

I'm in the middle of writing an essay right now even. It's called "Cosi" by Louis Nowra about a play within a play. It's when this uni graduate decides to take the job of directing a play with a group of mental patients. It's actually a beautiful book, like it's funny LOL and has those DEEP meaningful stuff and stuff. yeah. Like for a book to study it's good, I wouldn't read it for fun though. That's weird.

Anyway I'm stuck, so now I'm just going to ramble on this blog. OH yeah the prompt i'm doing is: "Through the imagery of light and dark, Nowra shows that chaos can be both frightening and liberating. Discuss." AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH it's SO ANNOYING.

and i've ran out of ideas or whatever, and I can't be bothered thinking more about the situations or whatever where light and darkness is mentioned. It's pretty bad I guess.

OMG I JUST TYPED SOMETHING AND PRESSED CTRL Z AND THE WHOLE MINI PARAGRAPH DISAPPEARED. DAMMIT. argh. whatever. and I forgot what I was talking about.

oh yeah. I was meant to say that I think I've already made great grammatical or sentence failures in this "post" but I won't proof read it because I need to save my energy for PROOF READING ESSAYS.

It's like whenever I focus on something, I end up ruining it. Like try-hards. They try to be cool, but they're not. Because they're trying. So whenever I try to speak or type in a fluent and sophisticated manner, I don't.
but I think my english improves when I'm angry or something.

PHOTOS

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I LOVE PHOTOS BUT I'M NOT POSTING ANY UP! AND IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A LOT ANYWAY. I LIKE THE NOTION AND THE IDEA OF PHOTOS, YET I USUALLY HATE/DISLIKE THE WAY I LOOK IN THEM. I'm TRYING to change that but hell. WHY SHOULD I CHANGE MYSELF? CHANGE IS INEVITABLE ANYWAY AND ILL CHANGE REGARDLESS OF MY OPINION ahahahHAHAH. this is a HIGHLY DEBATABLE TOPIC (well that's what I think, OBVIOUSLY).

ANYWAY. i'm going to TRY AND CHANGE ANYWAY. BECAUSE IM LIKE THAT. a PERSON WHO JUST LIKES TO CHANGE HERSELF ACCORDING TO WHAT SHE THINKS IS RIGHT. AHAHA BUT I DON'T NEED TO CHANGE MYSELF INTO SOMETHING THAT I THINK IS RIGHT. Actually THAT in itself is a WRONG, saying that I want to change myself, all the PREACHING in movies and from REAL people say "YOU SHOULD JUST BE COMFORTABLE WITH WHO YOU ARE." AHAHAHAHAHA WELL. BY MAKING MYSELF COMFORTABLE WITH WHO I AM, I AM ACTUALLY DOING THE OPPOSITE. BECAUSE OF THAT WORD "MAKING".

it should just come naturally i suppose

i'm always so emotional when i'm writing in this blog ;')

(oh I didn't even post a photo, oh how misleading the title shall be) (ill post photos up when i actually have them) (on my laptop)

OMFG

OMFG. I have this friend who goes to my old school and like I basically don't talk to him AT ALL now. Anyway, he is this UNBELIEVABLY RIDICULOUSLY artistic person. and he does art as a subject. TRUTHFULLY i didn't even KNOW he had art as a subject. AHA goes to show my ability to KEEP IN CONTACT WITH FRIENDS.

well. anyway I saw photos of HIS FINAL WORK OR WHATEVER AND LIKE THEY ARE THESE OHMYGOODNESSLY, RIDICULOUSLY GOOD LOOKING SCULPTURES. ARGH AREGH AEHGSKHLBKDS>F I WANT TO SEE IT SO BAD WITH MY OWN EYES. JUST ME AND THE SCULPTURES, EYE TO BLOODY CLAY AND LOOK AT IT IN ALL IT'S GLORY.


I WANT TO SEE IT SO BAD.ARRRRGH.

you see, now i feel like a COMPLETE stalker BECAUSE WELL, I JUST WANT TO SEE THE BLOODY SCULPTURES!(?) WTF.
IT'S LIKE A NEED. A PASSIONATE NEED TO SATE MY OVERWHELMING DESIRE BY STARING AT HIS WORK.

OMG IT'S LIKE I HAVE A MESSED UP MIND. i feel like a freak now. GREAT. well whatever.

WHATEVER.

AND I NEED TO GET OFF GAIA. THIS BADBADBADBADBADBAD AND HORRIDLY ADDICTING WEBSITE. AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IT IS! IT'S LIKE YOU DRESS UP YOUR AVI AND PLAY GAMES AND DO THIS WEIRD STUFF.
OBVIOUSLY I FEEL THAT IT'S NOT REALLY A WASTE OF TIME.

BUT IT DEFINITELY IS. ESPECIALLY DURING THIS TIME OF THE YEAR. HELL, EVEN SLEEP IS A WASTE OF TIME NOW. I NEED TO STUDY. OMG yes. I WILL STUDY NOW.

MAYBE after I finish reading this book.

haha ha ARE WE MEANT TO PROOF READ BLOGS? WELL TOO BAD. I CAN DO WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT BECAUSE I HAVE NO OBLIGATIONS TO THIS BLOG. IT IS HERE TO SERVE ME AND MY NEEDS. ESPECIALLY WHEN only like two ppl follow me? and i seriously doubt they even check it now because I don't even.........write much on here.

OMG MY SISTER POOED WHILE SHE WAS SLEEPING. THAT IS SO WEIRD. LOOOOOOOL.

my mum just told me that like just now. so yeah. it's not like I thought LONG and HARD about how to end my blog.
I only do that in english. in essays.