HOLIDAYS

I AM SO BORED BOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBORED. like i don't know, when exams finished i was SO happy like i started jumping and smiling really (too) widely and shrieking or whatever. and now I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY BORED. I remember like during exam period, i was like I can do AS MUCH of this stuff (not related to exams) when exams finished. but now that they have and like two days of this randomness i am utterly, horrifically, annoyingly bored. Like i don't even want to do the stuff that i wanted to do SO BADLY before. 

I don't even want to game, i just want to go out and talk to friends and socialise and MSN. I think it's the msn BECAUSE MY EMAIL GOT FKING BLOCKED SO NOW I CANT SIGN IN AND IT'S TORTURE. I NEVER KNEW HOW IMPORTANT MSN WAS IN MY LIFE UNTIL NOW. IT'S UNBEARABLE. I FEEL LIKE THOSE COCAINE ADDICTS IN MOVIES WHO FOAM AT THE MOUTH. I feel like crying. 

i need my email back. I NEED IT VERY BADLY. 

Of course I contemplated the idea of creating another email. BUT this email was the VERY VERY VERY FIRST EMAIL that i had. and was not made by my dad. 

I got it in year four

YEAR FOUR!!!!!!? 

yes your four. I even REMEMBER myself making it with help from a friend. also this email started a significant mashimaro name trend which is now a part of my very soul, even though i have never fully watched a proper mashimaro episode. I always named something related to it. ALWAYS.ALWAYS. and now the very first thing which i named is blocked and it is potentially lost forever. 

You know I have even grown out of this "mashimaro" thing i mean i don't even watch it in the first place, i just really adore the fat looking bunny. Though now it's different, no longer is "mashimaro" just an obese-ly fat bunny but a PART of me.

i can even type it with my eyes closed and with no mistakes AT ALL. mashimaro_luu@hotmail.com (there i just did it REALLY fast)

that email has seriously grown on me, like I have gone through so much with that email. when there was like constant spam and random crap going on, we stuck by each other. when everyone started thinking that their current email sounded way too retarded like "cutsie_lil_angel-babe" or something like that, we stuck by each other. i mean we have gone through SO much and now it's blocked. 

also I'd need to re-add people and talk to them as well

maybe ill make a temporary one for now. 

OH RIGHT yeah like i can't unblock my email because the back up email for my blocked email is like...i forgot the password and when it came to resetting my password (for the back up email) I didn't remember what date of birth my dad put in and which postcode was included when he signed me up for it. 

i'm so tired right now but i desperately need msn. oh and not being able to talk with friends on msn is also a reason which is just as bad if not worse.